There was a time when I would have used that term to describe myself, but not now. It’s still true: I am “scattered” these days. But I made a promise to myself that I would try to be as nice to me as I try to be to others.
So, no more name-calling, even just “in my head.” I am not “stupid” or a “moron” or “lazy” or any of the other descriptives that I used to apply to myself. I am “smart” and “busy” but not scatter-brained.
That said, I am still scattered. There are so many things I want to do, or need to do, that I sometimes don’t know where to start. Fortunately, I have no problem leaving all those things to ferment whilst my love and I go off on another adventure!
What’s fermenting in my brain right now? I want to write more, attend to my blog more, and somehow become more disciplined in the whole blog thing. I also want to learn more of the “nuts and bolts” of web sites and layouts and advertisers and content and yada, yada, yada.
I am really Jones-ing to get to my art journaling, too. I have so many wonderful supplies and journals and ideas in my head. I have things to remember and lists to make and drawings to draw and, well, just lots of stuff to journal. And to be a journalist, I guess.
I have hiking trails to try and clothes to make (or not) and parties to plan and an antiques booth to keep stocked. And then, there’s the house….
Not only are there rooms to clean, and rugs to beat and flowers to plant, but there are window frames and moldings and doors to paint. It never ends, does it?
So, where does that leave me? Scattered? Over-planned? Too busy to ever get it all done? Or what?
Ah, that’s the best part: being busy all the time! True, sometimes I’m “busy” reading or resting, but it’s busy nonetheless…
Life is full to the brim for me and I wouldn’t have it any other way. I will enjoy each moment and fill it with what feels right at the time. If the house gets cleaned, that’s great but, if my art journal gets started, that’s even better!
When I’m gone, I want them to say: “her house wasn’t always clean but her heart and her life were full.”
That works for me…